I can even tell that he loves me so much, he cares about me a lot that's. I can understand that he is afraid can't makes me happy and it might end up like his previous marriage if we both get married. He asked me to find someone else for my better future and convince me that I may get someone better than him but he still treat me like everything is all right. I cried almost everyday ( I really hate this, I don't like when people see im crying and look weak) but he always be there to hug me without saying a words. I still stay in his place, and i know it's uncomfortable. I asked him whether he wants me to stay in his house or leave. He said it's up to me but it will makes me sick even more and he won't make up his mind. He wants me to say "im done" because he isn't strong enough to say that to me. I love him very much and i can't make a choice. It's so hard to leave him because it will cause me pain while if I stay it will hurts me even more. It's a dilema.
I'm still hoping that he will change his mind when things get better. i don't know what to do