First person I ever felt serious about too... I must be pretty repulsive for someone to ghost me the way she did... I'm not hurt by it anymore, but not knowing what was going through her head is the worse part. I fucked up a lot, but it felt like it was out of my control. She didn't even want to fight for us enough to talk to me about her hangups... I hate how pathetic she making me feel. Stripped me of my pride and dignity. I just needed somewhere to vent. She was the only person who'd listen and care about my problems. Writing all this down helped... Suppose I'll just start trying to move on, but she's always going to pop up in my head.