Still, when a friend I hadn't seen in a while asked me all the things I liked about her, I struggled. I reflected on how I felt in past relationships and started to feel we lacked something "special"--like she was "the one." I found myself focused on her flaws, which were unfortunately conspicuous: 1) my closest friend hates her (I expect my family doesn't think much of her either); 2) she's cheap, especially with restaurant bills; 3) she can be narcissistic; 4) she almost never says thank you; 5) she's often rude to waitstaff; and 6) our sense of humors often clash.
Because she had such strong feelings for me, I knew that I needed to come to a conclusion about our future. In the end, I felt something missing, and couldn't look past the parts of her that annoyed me. I also refused to stay in a relationship because I was "comfortable." So I ended things. Better now than later, I thought. The breakup went amicably (relatively speaking). But while I expected to feel liberated by the decision, the opposite has been true. I've felt painfully lonely. I miss her a ton. And I struggle to come to grips with the fact that I may never see her again, or that I can't just text her to hang out.
And so here I am wondering what other people's experiences have been. Have you been through this too, only to find that you did the right thing and just needed time for your heart to catch up to your head? Or is this a sign I may have rushed my decision?