I just don't underestand, I thought I would be alright. I thought everything would get better, I thought I didn't have to do this. But why was I so wrong? Why did I even try to comfort myself? They were all just dry words, you know I never uswd to understand why people with eating disorders and self harm issues would make themselves go through hell. Now I do, i have become bulimic 2 months ago and have been depressed for long time. Now im having suicidal thoughts, I can't believe I fell into a situation I hated the most! Im going through such a hard time, its unbearable. My own father hates me, my own mother says im such a disappointment, my sisters dont care about me, my grandma says im worthless. I watched my father verbally abuse my mom through my childhood years, i watched them get a divorce at 14. I grew up alone without a mom in my teenage years. Missing her dearly, yet now i return by her side... she.. she's such a horrid person to me. Always yelling, calling me names, telling me how I can't do anything right! No one knows what Im going through..
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That's a sad truth. I have had best times outside my house with people around who I am not that close to while I always had to fight in my own house. It felt like It wasn't a home but battlefield. No one can hurt me outside I am carefree and light hearted that's home where I've been wounded the most. So I learned to keep people I love at a distance. But that still sucks because If being too close to fire burns you being far from it makes you freeze.0