He claimed to be, "reserved", (which deserves to have some quotation marks), and thought I should be the same since I was his "perfect girl" and "he never had a connection like this before". I altered the way I dressed and limited myself to talking with my friends, since I thought it was easier. If I didn't, it was mainly a mess, him having anxiety attacks, sending me videos, calling me disgusting, things like that.
Then a whole heap of other topics arrived and the similar thing happened, when I disagreed, he'd have a scene, I'd agree and we'd pretend we're okay. After 6 months of this, I was feeling empty, sad and angry. I decided to break up, saying how I was just causing more anxiety for him because of my views, and that I didn't think we were quite right for each other because of our different views, plus with the long distance thing.
Throughout this, I had not told a soul about any of it. He has his parents, brother, friends and therapist in America who know about our relationship, so I figured he could seek out one of them, talk, and eventually get over it. This did not happen. After about a month of trying to convince him, he wouldn't agree to the breakup and I sent him a paragraph, wishing him well and re explaining myself, reaffirmed that he could always talk to his parents, therapist etc. and blocked him on everything. Throughout the past months, I've receive do countless of messages saying he's going to kill himself and that he's doing bad things to himself, I do my best to ignore them and have ignored all of them.
I've also alerted his brothers and friends of his bad mindspace. Is there anything else I can do? Am I a bad person for breaking up? Has anyone gone through a similar thing?
Most Helpful Guy
What you did is exactly what you should have done. You recognized his eccentricities and tried to accommodate him. When that didn't work, you made yourself the highest priority and made a good decision for yourself. You have alerted his brothers and friends about his suicidal threats.
You cannot know how serious his threats are and you must take them seriously. Has he found another way to contact you since you blocked him? If so, you should contact his parents. If you feel that you cannot do that, you should discuss this with your parents and ask for their assistance.
Ultimately, you cannot help him and you cannot pull him up. However, if you had not blocked him he would be pulling you down.
Remember that he had these problems for you met him and none of this is your fault.
Most Helpful Girl
You have done great and handled it well for being a kid. I had a similar problem with someone who was my friend and had very strong, very unhealthy feelings for me. Basically she told our entire camp cabin that the only reason she was still alive was because I saved her from her depression, this was right after I started to have my own emotional breakdowns about her. The emotional baggage was toxic for me, and she pushed a lot of my boundaries until I started having nightmares about her. I had to stop being her friend and I had really bad guilt about letting her be alone because I felt so responsible for her pain by abandoning her. One day she told me she might not be around much longer if I’m not with her.