So I was with this woman for 4 and a half years. Then she cheated on me. The pain was so deep that not even a whole bottle of Hennessey could contain my pain. Fast forward two months later I meet an older woman that was really down for me but I was so damaged from my ex that I started lookin at the things she was doing and wondering if she was playing me. I couldn't trust her no matter how hard I tried. Most of all i still have feelings for my ex despite the fact that I haven't spoke to her in over 6months. Fast forward to now I'm currently single and just freelancing from girl to girl having meaningless sex and for the first time in my young life I feel completely lost.