I dated him for 1.5 years. The relationship was very bumpy (due to my insecurities and his insensitivity to my insecurities and jealousies). I found out he cheated about a month ago. We tried to end things civilly (i tried to imagine a cheater isn’t who he is, and it was just the circumstances - a relationship going through a really bad time -). However. I couldn’t get over the pain and betrayal. I made sure things ended on a horrible note, as i said some very mean and damaging things to him. Anyways, i have been going out and meeting people. But, no guys is him. No one is my ex. I hate that i still love him, and sometimes i want to make it work, but then I’ll get triggered by something and get angry about him cheating and hurting me all over again.