Just posting an update on my last posts. It's been months with very small talk...and really short. Just trying not to break contact with her (its not like she lives close, or hangs out)...and I told her I didn't care about the distance...who would when you would do anything to be with the one you love. I don't want to play games like that. But the more time that passes the more I realize that she is the love of my life and I had to say something to her. We did small talk on face book earlier today while she was at work. So I didn't want to say anything serious, while she's working. So anyway, I wrote her an email. Stating how beautiful she is and how I know that she is the love of my life. I asked her to give this another shot and that I want a serious relationship with her. There was more to the email, but that is the main point. Anyway, I don't know if I have should of sent her that. But I told her exactly how I feel and that she deserved to know. I also asked her if we can talk in person or on the phone/internet at least. She didn't respond yet. Well.. I guess I am asking if there is any hope that she will respond, or that she might change her mind? I didn't want to wait to tell her, and I really think that she deserved to know. I just hope I didn't screw up any chance that we might of had of being together. I don't want her to think that I am weird/crazy/desperate. I told her that it was how I feel, and I am thinking 100% clear...which is true. I don't overflow emails/texts/calls to her, but it's going on months and I don't want to play the waiting/no contact game.
It is funny how life works...It sucks so bad that the love of your life, might not ever want to be with you. Or maybe can move on so easily each day, while I am falling more in love with her each day. The pain is the most unbearable...and when I am feeling better, my feelings for her are no different then when I am down.
So what do you guys and girls think? Did I do the right thing? What could she possibly be thinking or feeling right now? Why won't she at least talk to me in a serious way, about our feelings? (I know I only wrote to her earlier today, but I wrote her a letter about a week ago...but it just wasn't quite what I wanted to say). And also advice on what else I can do will be helpful.