My ex broke up with me 3 and a half months ago. We were long distance and that was the cause of our break up. I miss him... it’s weird. I don’t miss him enough that I think about him every single minute or day but there are times when small stuff about him slip on my mind. How he would screenshot every time I fell asleep during video call or how we’d make our future plans. I miss the fights too. Gosh we still talk every now and then but sometimes I just want to say that I miss him or that I love him but I’m not sure if I want to be with him or just the idea of having him as a boyfriend again. I see his Instagram and he always posts videos of him having fun with his girl friends (he doesn’t really get along with guys) and I just feel like I’m missing out. I don’t know anymore. I don’t want to miss him and I definitely don’t want to love him. I don’t know what I want.