The worst was when I considered the idea of having sex with an old fling and was flirting with him and he invited me and a table of friends to an after party. I realized at that point that my boyfriend and I had been fighting badly and if I did sleep with the old fling I would have to break up with my boyfriend because I would not be able to go back to my boyfriend after being with an other man. I could never do that to him. However, I now realize what I was doing was emotional cheating, that I was considering sex with an other man while in a relationship and now how wrong and damaging that is to my boyfriend. We have been completely honest about all of this over the last four days and I am devastated to learn that emotional cheating is worse in a way than physical cheating. We both want to work this out and he has shown what a good man he is to admit his hurt and right to break up with me, as I understand would be his right to do. I want to make this work, and he wants to make this work.
The question is how? We have used the brutal truth aspect and it has left us both hurt and with a hollow space in our hearts. Now that I know the difference of emotional vs. physical cheating I will never emotionally cheat again...how can I make him know this and trust me again? Or have I done too much damage