So I was in this relationship for about a year and she got really phisicaly and emotionaly abusive (I know it's lame getting hit by your girlfriend but it happened) and now we broke up and theirs very little contact, but I constantly worry about her and want to be with her still. I should hate her but I just don't. I want to meet new people but honestly I've never really had friends before and I don't know how to do that. This is stupid but I've tried to kill myself twice in the last week. I'm just off now.