Is it worth it?

I was with my girlfriend for 5 months already. We have been trying to make it work but it’s not working and I feel very guilty for it. It’s a 2 steps forward 3 steps back with her. I told her I will change. I am currently applying for 6 union jobs and trying to keep her happy and move forward. I want to move in with her. She pushes me in a good way but as I try to change she stays the same. She keeps talking about how her ex gave her gifts and on her birthday he gave her 400$ I gave her flowers a Michael Kors bag and a stuffed bear and she rejected them all and said it’s the worst birthday ever. She also tells me how she’s used to attention and had/has guys running after her. I feel very disrespected and very hurt that I am trying to change myself for her but get nothing in return. She gets very mad at me for not calling her but texting her and she always questions me if I care about her. I do but I’m just to busy doing tests waiting in lines and then going to work at nights from 6pm-2am. She is here on a student visa if it doesn’t work out she will have to leave to her home country. People tell me she’s just using me but I just refuse to acknowledge that because she tells me it’s not about that it’s about the way she feels about me but see the thing is I don’t see it. She hates my car, she hates the way I dress she hates the music I listen to she hates my way of life. We spoke today and I told her everything and she says she sees no commitment from me as if we are just friends. It’s probably my fault for taking on too much all at once I don't know I’m just looking for some advise. Is it worth it? To feel this kind of guilt and this coldness from her? And I feel I’m wasting her time as well. I feel I’ll never be good enough for her or ever satisfy her. I’m not perfect I know that and I’ve made mistakes too I have and I’m learning from them it’s just very heart braking that she doesn’t see them. Or maybe I’m not making enough of an effort?
Is it worth it?
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