How to handle Pain&Sadness because of being single?

How to handle Pain&Sadness because of being single?
I am 19 year old virgin with a lot of mood shifts becasue of only this.
I have had one rejection and one breakup so far.
I recovered from the rejection completely after 8 months.
The breakup took me a few weeks,
I only liked her half way, I couldn't say no when she asked me out.

I personallly do not care about not yet having a girlfriend,
but my mood goes down at least every second day because of it.
I get very sad and cry once every few months on purpose to get rid of the feelings that crawl up my throat.

I need help.
It is going on like this for 2 years already

I have school only twice a week and work for the rest of the week (except for weekends ofc).
I wake up at 4:40 am to get to work and arrive at home at 6pm to then sleep at 10pm
to not fall asleep at work. I also do not yet have a drivers license and live in a small, relatively remote village.
So I do not have the time to start a relationship,
and long distance relationships are stupid.

I have tried everything.
Not thinking about it, thinking about other things,
not caring about it, focusing on other things,
doing sports, listening to music,
taking a look at idols, etc.

Confessing and staying single are no options for me at the moment.

I need help.
It is going on like this for 2 years already.

How can I solve this?
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fuck this world
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