How can I celebrate my bday empty and sad alone?

I’ll be 22 and feel very empty. I lost desire for everything. I have my online store, will get my car finally October , I went on a Vegas trip few weeks ago and was best ever and met a good friend I never had but she lives far so we only text. But lately been crying daily unhappy very empty. My only dream was love a 1st boyfriend. I’m romantic girl I lost desire to party waste time I just want begin relationship. My gift for my bday was love but instead I’ll be alone crying depressed in far city. I don't know what to do alone 😞 I want quit everything as my dream is have a man only. Material things don’t make me happy. My parents call me stupid for wanting man I wish I can leave nest but have no partner
How can I celebrate my bday empty and sad alone?
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