Why do I keep thinking about how I could have been what he needed?

Anonymous
I was in love with him. He wasn’t in love with me.

I told him I couldn’t be his friend when he asked if we could stay friends because of the fact that I loved him.

It’s been about a month and a half and even though I know logically that I shouldn’t pine after someone that doesn’t want me, I can’t stop thinking what if.

What if I was what he needed and he didn’t know it?

What if I stayed his friend?

What if I texted him right now?

I hate myself right now, because I know I deserve better, but all I want is him.
Why do I keep thinking about how I could have been what he needed?
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