Cheating! Tell him or not?

I’ve dated this guy for fours years. He is such a wonderful boyfriend. Very nice a little too nice. Always stood by my side, never giving up on me. I feel like I can be my total self around him. Well… most of myself. I’m an unfaithful girlfriend. I’ve cheated on him with at least ten guys. 5 of them I actually had sex with. My boyfriend has no clue! He completely trusts me! And if he ever questions me about it, I get angry and lie and blame it on him. I seriously don’t deserve a man like him. But I want to change because I do love him! I don’t want to do this anymore, I want to be a great girlfriend and make him really happy! Where can I start? Should I tell him about all these other guys? I mean if I do, I know he will leave and I know I guess that’s what I get but I want to change! Should I just change and not tell him? I believe I learned my lesion with out being punished. But I feel so guilty about it. What is the right thing to do?
Cheating! Tell him or not?
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