I tried to see if he wanted to get back together but he didn't, then I wanted to find out what went wrong between us (so I could fix it in the future with someone else) so I asked his friends and cousins but they said nothing and shorty after that he cut me out of his life. Blocked my texts, calls, e-mails. It's the most hurt I've ever felt in my life. Chest pain, lonely nights, and major depression for a month.
I thought I was over him but whenever I go through a misunderstanding with a new guy, thoughts of my ex come rushing back. I need closure. I need him to tell me what I did wrong and how to fix it.
This new guy that I like wants to get intimate with me, but I'm not ready. Mostly because I can't bare to get physically close to a man to be rejected. Also because I don't trust his feelings for me nor mine.
I have dreams of my ex and guys and running away from all of them. I'm tiring of living my life this way. I want to be loved by the right man, but if I don't act, I'm going to let opportunities pass me by. Help!