He was driving me to his house for the night because I was drunk and couldn't drive. I kept mentioning that I needed to go home and something about my brother. I don't know He felt like I was a grown women and shouldn't have to worry about what my brother thinks. Which is true but I only told him that because we had s-x the night before and my feelings were everywhere. I wanted to but I wasn't sure if I should have went with him.
Then he told one of my friends last night when she asked him about me that I don't make enough contact with him and I hold back alot. He said he needs someone that knows what she wants and I guess goes after it? I never make the initiative. The only reason I've been holding back is because I didn't exactly know how he felt. I didn't call him and text him often because I didn't want to push him away because we weren't together..I felt like I was bothering him.
I went to his house last night and we talked a bit. When I left this morning he hugged me and told me to hit him up.
What do I do? I know I want him. I really care about him and I don't know what I'd do if I lost him again. I don't know if it's to late or I ruined my chances when I turned him off?
Do I make effort and show him that I do care and I know what I want? I'd do anything right about now because I'm afraid of losing him for good :/