Basically I loved and trusted this girl with all my heart and turns out she faked the whole thing. I thought she loved me unconditionally and was faithful. But couldn't be farther from the truth, she probably cheated more times than I can count and I didint even realize she was. There was no signs of that or that she was using me. Before I dated her, I was a strong happy confident guy. Now, I feel like I've been brought to me knees. she's destroyed me and I'm trying to figure how to get back up from this.I have never been this screwed over in my life, I don't even know how to handle this. All this great stuff I thought about her and just to find out all this sh*t and the end and for her to laugh in my face and say, "Haha you got played bitch"
...is too much to swallow or wrap my head around. What would drive someone to do something this cruel? Not just cruel, sick. Is she getting back at men for bad past relationships where she got used?
I mean I treated her so well and I really really cared about her. I wouldve never done anything to hurt her. Wtf... and its like she waited till I got close to her and fell in love with her to turn around and pull this. So, this is far beyond just a disappointed, she affected beyond my deepest level of emotions. If feel like I can't ever trust anyone again. And I'm a guy, this sh*t isn't supposed to be happening to me, but it is. This is a major hit to my ego and confidence. What she did is like psychological torture. Now, waking up in the middle of the night having nightmares about this or ill lay awake all night trying to sort myself out. My emotions are all jumbled up and nothing really makes sense. Its almost PTSD like, which I did have for a short period when I came back from Iraq. Has anybody gone through this? I mean break ups are bad enough, but I mean a break up plus this? Its a lot. And I got through PTSD through sheer will power and talking to others that had it and together we got through it without any outside help. But on this I'm in the minority. I'm confident ill get through it, but its just that I'm really suffering right now and probably will be for awhile. I hate admitting that she affected me this much but she did. Girls, please tell me most girls aren't like this? I'm one of the few good guys left out there, I can't believe she did this to me.
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There are plenty of female players out there. I have ran into my fair share of them. That is why you have to be careful. This is something that is unfortunately very common. So you are not alone. A lot of men and women, understand what you are going through.1