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You might still have feelings for your ex, but you can't get back with him unless you both want to get back with each other, and if you have addressed what went wrong the first time around (assuming it was due to arguments, and not falling out of love). Otherwise you would get back with him ony to break up again.
It seems like you miss him and long for him, and are saddened that the first boyfriend you ever had broke up with you. It sounds like because that was your first time, and because you still sound sad over this, you really cared about him. It's natural that you would miss the good times that you had, but you have to feel better about yourself.
Don't be sad. I'm a shy and quiet person, and once I was infatuated but love wasn't returned, so I also felt like I wasn't good enough. Don't feel this way. Everyone is special, including you. The fact that he went out with you means you were worth in his eyes. You meant something to him. Although he isn't with you anymore, you are a good person, worthy of anyone's love. I'm sure you will find the man of your dreams eventually.
It sounds like you're dressing nicely to try to impress him, because you still care for him. He won't be embarrassed for being with you. Have some self-esteem. Each person is beautiful, and so are you. Good luck :)
p.s. - Could you give some information as to why you broke up. That way, I and other (GAG=Girlsaskguys) GAGers can help you with what went wrong, and possibly work on a solution, if indeed your situation can be fixed. But don't get your hopes up. I had false hopes before, and they never came true.
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