Personally I don't care although I was having a hard time because I'm reluctant to talk to him when he calls or texts me. its like if he was going away I wish he would just stay away. but he doesn't want to do that because he feels he just need to reinstill value in himself
maybe I'm a selfish bitch but after one week or so I asked if I could at least get a hug. (personally think its stupid to ask) I don't really want one but my head is hurting and I don't know I feel weird
anyways he was like sure I'll meet you at your house after work. I live w my grandma who doesn't know we're together and so I was like lemme just go to your house or meet somewhere else
he goes "nah because its only going to be for 4 seconds afterward you can go straight back into your house"
That pissed me off to the 3rd degree and canceled all together. I feel like damn you want space but do you need to control everything I'm the one that wants the hug forget it I'm sure you just can't wait to get me out of the way so you can go back home ofc you want me to run back into the house god forbid I wanted to chill for a few minutes
I do this all the time I'm always feeling like this I'm not mad I just don't care I'm like whatever do what you want fk it I wish I never said anything I wish I NEVER say anything I am selfish aren't I i just hate this so much so stupid I could spit I don't know why I regret things so much or react the way I do I can't understand why I just want to cut him off all together am I a brat? I just don't want to get played or treated like a convenience store
if I'm wrong tell me now I'll readjust my thinking but I'll be damned if I sit here begging to see someone who doesn't want to see me or calling someone who doesn't want to talk to me.
its one thing to want space another to throw it in my face every 4 seconds I'm not a pet or a child
go away all together if you don't want to see me every once in a while
ok this turned out to be a rant ._.
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I don't believe you're a brat. I think you are just not being honest with yourself and it's causing some conflicts in your mind and your self talk.
You mention that you don't care that your boyfriend wants space, yet you blew up and thought to yourself, "You can' wait to get rid of me, you need to control everything". To me, that's a red flag saying you're actually not fine / comfortable about the space, but you're trying to act like you are fine, because you're afraid of getting played or treated like a store.
It's best to be honest with yourself at times like these especially. It's actually a good thing you're asking yourself why you do this, and it evident that you have some space to change, seeing that you're frustrated with it. I know many girls who think they're right in blowing up like that and refuse to recognize it's them, not their boyfriends.
I hope that helps, I don't mind helping you vent about it if you need it.
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