I still love and care for him and would like to remain friends. He really is an awesome guy and does so much right. The reasons I broke it off were mainly that trust had been broken ( he cheated for the first year and almost relapsed a few times since), I wasn't ready to move in together and I needed him to step up more ( yes, I asked him to do so repeatedly). Also, I'm not sure I really like being in a full-on relationship. I value my independence too much.
This has all been very emotional and confusing. Now that I've ended it he's saying all the right things and promising to be a better partner and he really doesn't want to lose me. Trouble is, I've heard it all before and I'm so done. I don't think he's the right man for me. I don't want to give him false hope or hurt him anymore than I already have. Ug! It's the break up that wouldn't stick. Advice? Anyone?