I had a gut feeling it was going to end but I still didn't want it to. I love him, I really do. Losing him broke my heart. He said his feelings for me had changed so he I think he was withdrawing from the relationship before it even ended. This happened on Saturday, so not even a week ago yet.
Despite how much breaking up tore me apart, I'm now confused. I feel like I'm over it already. But I can't possibly be, can I? We were together for 2 years...
On the day we broke up I was crying so violently I could barely breathe. The next day I felt indifferent. Then the following day I felt depressed and lost and cried a little again. The next day I was an emotional wreck once more, feeling completely lethargic. The day after that I felt indifferent again, but still lethargic. Then yesterday I felt the same but met up with some friends for a meal and had great fun. I was laughing a lot and didn't have a care in the world!
Emotionally, I've been all over the place. I think about my ex a lot, analysing our relationship, what could have gone differently, actually beginning to feel angry with both myself and him for not seeing the signs/leading me on, etc. The thing is, the last couple of days, other than feeling a bit lethargic, I feel like I'm content and over it already. We were together for 2 years so how is that possible?
I know its a little different, but I've never been good at grieving the death of relatives. I seem to allow myself to cry for a couple of days then nothing. I do tend to suppress my emotions without realising it (which I know isn't really a good thing). Is that maybe what I'm doing now? I'm just suppressing what I feel?
This is my first break-up so I didn't really know what to expect. Is it maybe "normal" to get past the crying stage quite quickly? I know I'm not over my ex because I still think about him a lot and feel guilty when I think I am over the relationship. I'm just very confused...
I do apologize for this being so long but thanks in advance!