Also I just feel like personally I need more expiernce in dating before I commit to someone fully. He's only my second boyfriend and I just feel like I'm awful at being a girlfriend. We don't do stuff as often as we should and its always a hassle because he tries to do pre game stuff and I just don't know what I like. Although other than the pre game issue that time is good so I guess that can be solved by me simply helping myself per say but I even hate doing that.
But in the same respect I'm crazy about the kid. He treats me amazingly and frankly is one of the best things to happen to me. So I don't want to leave him and throw away our two years together for Nothing.
But he deserves better and (ill be selfish and say) I deserve better, in the respect that we never really have time to devote to each other. And we aren't very affectionate couple emotionally or physically
BUT again I don't want to throw this away for nothing. What if he finds someone else? Or I find someone else? Or he gets pissed at me for even suggesting and we just flat out break up.
As you can see I'm very on the fence about this and I want to make the right decision I just don't know what that is. Please help, if you can. Thanks.
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To answer your main question directly I'll say that taking a break seldom works out. It's almost always (not always) is used as a way of breaking up without actually saying, "let's break up!" Both parties can save face that way. I can see why you think that breaking up would be throwing away your two years together for nothing. But that's not correct thinking because it's the present that's important because the past is only history, and those two years you did get something good out of it. You got some enjoyment and you got some experience with a boyfriend that wasn't overly attentive to you. It wasn't for nothing. But to get down to the facts, the key to your relationship is in what you said here, "And we aren't a very affectionate couple emotionally or physically." If you're not involved with him emotionally nor physically then you really have nothing. Those are the only two ways people can connect with each other... emotionally being the most important. He doesn't actually have time for you, and I think you're right in what you said here, "Also I just feel like personally I need more experience in dating before I commit to someone fully." If he has a self loathing attitude plus he said his situation/attitude will never change, well then if you stay with him you have a boyfriend that doesn't really care if he stays with you or not. So I say you can do much better by taking the break and not caring if he likes it or not! He'll either make a big effort to change more favorably towards you or he'll more further apart. Don't worry if he gets pissed for suggesting it because if he does that means he knows he's to blame. If he doesn't so something about it that means he doesn't care! Don't feel that just because you've been with him for 2 years you have to stay another 2 years to find out how bad things really get. I don't know how you can say all you did, yet say he treats you amazing and is the best thing that ever happened to you. He either treats you great or he doesn't. Right now it seems like he's treating you horribly. You need a boyfriend that's consistent. Someone that treats you amazing all the time. Suggest the break because if he really likes you and wants to stay with you he'll be quick to say he'll start being more the kind of boyfriend you want and need and will start making much more effort to be with you. He needs to talk positive to you in a way that you can clearly understand. Not in riddles. We each are responsible for our own lives and have to make the necessary changes in what we do and in what we allow other to do to us whenever we run into a road block or detour in our relationships with people. If you want to be happy in the future then decide what you have to change and what you have to do, and then do it now without hesitation! Don't put all your faith, happiness, time, effort and future in his hands. Keep control of all that in your own hands. Good luck!