We were extremely close for about 5 years and a really great friendship turned into something more. I couldn't handle it back then and broke off the physical part of our relationship. Very soon after he ended up meeting someone.
After 5 years of talking and seeing each other almost every day, poof he was gone. No explanation no nothing. I was crushed. He eventually married her and had two kids. I didn't hear from him for 17 years.
17 years later he contacted me to apologize. We gradually started talking and it turned into an every day thing for a month. We talked about how even though we really care about each other, we can't do anything now because he is in a huge custody battle and I just broke off an engagement/six year relationship.
We finally met up this past weekend. We had a great time - talked all night, slept together (no sex). After he left I just lost it. I was crying and so pissed at myself for still having feelings for him. I think he could tell I was upset because he called me shortly after he left. I told him I was just torn up and didn't know if I could talk to him anymore.
We've exchanged a few emails this week. Nothing like how much we talked before. I don't know what to do. We agreed throughout all of our talks that we would always stay friends in the future.
Should I just cut off all contact if I still have feelings for him? We get along so well and have so much fun together that doing that seems like a waste, but I don't want to be hurt. Should I try to talk to him about it?
He has already been dating for about a year, he just hasn't met anyone he likes. So I think he is ready to date, but I am sure this is hugely draining for him.
I just don't know that he would want to date me. He may not feel anything for me anymore. Which is what I am assuming so I am trying to figure out whether or not I can be friends with him.