Alright, so this is probably going to sound lame, cheesy, cliche, etc. etc. but I'm losing it and need some advice. And I apologize in advance if this is long.
I've known this girl (by girl I mean she's 22) for almost 8 years. We met through a camp for kids with disabilities. At first we were both campers when I was 16/17 (her 14/15). I talked to her a lot but there was no chemistry and I actually had a crush on her friend.
Fast-forward 3 years later, we're both back but as counselors. I talked her the first couple of days and then I suddenly feel chemistry between us. I can sense it. I remember seeing her glance at me pretty frequently. Even a noticeable smile a few times. I never made a move because I was in a rough stage of my life.
Fast forward to this year (another 4 years later), I see her again. I had never thought about her much since the last time I saw her. The feelings came rushing back and again, I would catch her looking at me. During the dance we had for the kids, I would see her looking at me from her table. I KNEW she wanted me to make a move. I never did then. Never did at all during the camp. I didn't even talk to her at all.
This has been killing me since I last saw her nearly two months ago. I see her in my dreams. When I see girls who look like her, I think of her. When I think about love, I think of her.
I am actually a very charismatic guy, even around girls that I like. But I could never muster up to courage to go up to her and say something or ask her out. It's unlike me.
I feel like I need to do something. Something to make sure whether or not we could have something. Unfortunately, she moved to another city for med school so I don't know her exact address but I know which hospital she's going to. She doesn't have Facebook anymore so I can't go that route.
I was wondering if I could use my talent of writing lyrics/poetry to express what I like about her. If I could find out how to send the letter to her, I could send it to her. I know it's something that could scare her away but if she didn't like it, she wouldn't be a perfect fit for me.
What are your thoughts? Please don't say 'Grow a pair' or 'Move on'. I've already tried mustering up the courage to make a move and I can't move on unless I get an answer as to whether or not we're meant to be.
Thanks for the answers so far.
And I'll hold off on the poem (It's a work in progress right now). I'll take this coffee 'date' as a way to get to know her more and gauge the interest level between us.
Thanks y'all. :)
We're still trying to figure out a day to meet. It's a bit tough with being in nursing school at the moment and the fact I live 30 minutes away. I have talked to her everyday (on Facebook) since messaging her and I think she's interesting judging by her replies and saying 'haha' frequently. I also got her number when I didn't even ask for it (I gave her mind first though..).
We'll see. Wish me luck haha.
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Very proud of you for realizing that "if she didn't like it, she wouldn't be a perfect fit for me.". It's true. If you feel comfortable writing something for her, why not? Do you two have a mutual friend who might know her new address? I agree with you - try to get an answer from her, somehow, because you're gonna regret for years if you don't.