When he says or does something, I of course over think and over analyze what he said or did. I usually assume he lost interest in me. We’ve been dating for 3 months and I’m his first girlfriend. My boyfriend doesn’t really know that I think this, I usually keep it in but when I get home, I let it all out. I get so awkward in conversations and anxious when talking to some people, can’t stand that awkward silence, makes me feel uncomfortable. I sometimes say things that I later regret because I don’t really know what to talk about. I’m still regretting and making sure nothing bad happens, like my 2 friends told other people about it even though I told them to not tell and I trust them but I’m just really afraid.
I get all happy about my boyfriend then my whole over-thinking turns on and I start to think about what I told my 2 friends about hanging with my boyfriend and his ears getting red whenever we make out which confused me and if he likes someone else or is losing interest in me or is using me. I keep comparing him to my ex boyfriend which that relationship was hell and he used me as an ego booster, it was just bad. I’m really insecure about how I look and act, I feel really unattractive. Like I said, boyfriend doesn’t really know I over think like this nor anything else that I’ve wrote. I keep it all to myself which it’s driving me nuts. I’m still worrying about multiple things, can’t eat right now because of this. I regret telling them that. What to do?