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Weeeeell could be a couple of things:
1. I wouldn't date a girl(even a hot one) who literally thinks she's better than other people. If she's kidding about it it's fine, but literally believing it to be true is kinda repulsive. Maybe he's the same way.
2. He may not think you're interested in him. You guys never talked, he doesn't know you and you may come across as conceited/intimidating.
3. Maybe you give off a creepy vibe. Wanting to commit suicide over some dude you didn't even ever talk to sounds kinda needy/projecting/weird to me especially if you're mid thirties.
Here is some advice:
1- Try taking more initiative. When you really want something it's worth putting yourself out there for it even if it's not something you'd normally do.
2- Try holding back your thoughts about guys until you actually get to know them. That'll avoid you falling in love with an impression (which can be completely wrong and lead to disappointment)
3- Try letting go of what other people do with their lives. Don't compare yourself to others it's not productive.1