LONG STORY SHORT: she drives me insane and I love it but its effecting me
SHORT STORY LONG
backtrack a year ago.me and my ex break up. Soon out fo boredom I start texting people I used to know. text a couple I set up together to see how they are doing. They tell me they broke up. Girl (call her Claire) sais its because things were getting hectic. Guy (call him Sam) sais its because he just didn't like her anymore.
I never thought much of sam but tried to be his friend in the past and he never let me. But Claire is really cool and right up my ally, and she starts to talk to me a lot after this.
Fast Forward a month and claire comes over to hang out a few times, before we go on two dates and kiss the first few times. This "dating" routine goes on for two months and we get closer and hang more often as time goes on. I ask if she wants to make us official
Suddenly she is distant and unsure. One day, he surprises me with sam wanting to get back together and she's unsure what she wants. After discussing it, she sais she like me alot, but somewhere in her she still loves him. So, I made a big mistake here I figured that since I knew he doesn't love her, and they fought often when together, it wouldn't be long until they break up again and we could put it behind us. So I tell her to do what she thinks she needs to.
They have been back together since April. She still complains to me about him all the time. Her new years resolution was to BE HAPPY, even if it meant breaking up with him (her words).
Now, so much of this drives me insane
- I like her so much, I dated someone else in July. but it didn't get . far because I wasn't really interested
-She is unhappy and it kills me.
-She won't listen to me or take my advice
-Everytime I start to move on she pulls me back in like a tractor beam
-Ive lost contact with a lot of friends since highschool a few years ago, and she's one of the few people I talk to often
I should just give up right? Call it quits in the 13th round?
I have a strong philosophy about missing opportunity but I feel I'm missing more by staying interested.
I couldn't sleep tonight because I think in circles about her and can't stop.