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You probably feel like crap because you said it was a good relationship overall but you broke it up because of impatience of his stoic demeanor when it comes to emotions.
Guys are, males, as in different from females. Most guys don't overly communicate their feelings, it's how we're conditioned growing up as males.
So, in short, you ended a GOOD relationship, got back together, then broke up a GOOD relationship, AGAIN! You broke up a GOOD relationship TWICE!
That's why you feel like crap.