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what was the lie about? did he actually cheat on you?
It sounds to me like you wanted to be with him but couldn't totally forgive him and give the fresh start needed in these scenarios. that's not your fault it's usually very difficult to get past a lie, especially if it's not someone you are just out of this world in love with.
why are you feeling guilty and dumped? probably because you do know that you were being negative after things went down. you feel dumped because he's sort of run away leaving you chasing him.
I think what's best is to sort of take some time off and just allow each of you time to reflect on things. you can get your $30 later (which by the way was only a tool you were using to try and talk to him because you wouldn't call and call and call over $30)
I don't blame you for your situation. It's really hard to move past a lie and truly and fully forgive, forget and start anew