Why do I miss him? We were never serious but involved with each other for a long time. He was very narcissistic and older. I always felt so attached to him but I always felt like I could never get him to love me...like I was just an object to him. He just wanted me for sex and was being a jerk so I left.
I'm glad I walked away but sometimes I daydream that I will meet him again and he will somehow magically turn sweet and caring and really see me.
Even though he was such a jerk that forgiving him would require he changes so much that it's not humanely possible.
Why do I still dream of this? It disturbs me a little bit.
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Even though he is a jerk, he was still part of your life. So now there is a void. Sex is an intimate act you will have feelings for the other person regardless of how good or bad the relationship is/was.
You left you did the right thing. Get out of fantasy land. He will not change. He is not worth your time.
If you see him. Run. Run fast and run far.