So i dated this guy near 10 months
It was fantastic we never argued, we met each others familys, friends, dated.
2 weeks ago he ended it. He said he wasn't ready for a full on relationship. We didn't get to speak about it properly and a few days later we ended up on the same night out and had a big fight. i was ready to never talk to him again until his best friend seen me and came up to me saying that X (we will call him that) Loves me and hadn't spoke about another girl the way he speaks about me. Just his head has been so messed up since his last ex.
So Sunday morning i was lying in bed thinking about him he text me early asking me to come over and talk about things.
So i went over we talked, I cried, he cried (which was really unusual ) telling me how much i meant to him and i was one of the few woman he did trust in his life. He said he just wasn't ready for a relationship and keeps thinking he will drive me out his life and i will hate him. after a lot of back and forth i told him i loved him and that i understood and to my surprise he told me he loved me to. we spent one last night together as "us"
he is keen to keep us as friends but i said i needed a few days to think about it.
So i decided to try and be friends and went to his gig the following week. A few of us went back to his flat and he kept doing things like puttin his arm on my back and at one point pulled me in for a hug and kissed my head. So the inevitable ended up happening.
We talked about it in the morning and he told me he loved me first and i was shocked. he started to cry saying if i thought us being friends was to hard and i needed to walk away understand. i asked why he was crying he said he didn't want me to completely walk out his life and that this was a hard.
we ended up arguing about it a few days later because he felt guilty. Then he was pointlessly texting me yesterday. I dont know if i should not hold my breathe and walk because of how i feel about him. i
To be clear it wasn't a booty text he wasn't in the city so there was no chance of a hook up.
we text til late hours in the morning just talking rubbish and he complimented a photo of mine.
i don't know what to do a love the contact but think it's probably bad in the long run of things if he wants us to be "just friends"