We met online about a year ago, we didn't talk much then, played videogames together and chatted occasionally, then fast forward a couple of months, I started developing feelings towards her, I fell in love with her personality, big time. It was weird at first because I think myself as a bit shallow person. I started talking to her more and more, we started texting A LOT, playing together every night, and just generally having fun. She confides in me, tells me stuff she never talks about to anyone else, she sends me lots of pictures of herself and her dog and about stuff she's doing at the moment.
Two months ago, she asked me if I wanted to join her group of 7, on a LAN event, I said yes, obviously. We ended up spending time together, only 2 of us, like 95% of the time being there. We drove around the city, went shopping, eating, just two of us, listening to music and driving around. Even if we had some silent moments during driving around, it didn't feel awkward at all. Just being around her made me feel serene.
I just stared at her while she was fixing her hair, or putting on lipstick, I have never had such urge to kiss anyone spontaneously. Whenever I talked to her, we locked eyes, for a long time, throughout the conversations we didn't lose eye contact at all. Sometimes she would just randomly turn around to look into my direction with a really sweet smile and staring into my eyes, like she could see my soul, she has the most beautiful eyes and her smile only fulfills them. When I did the same to her she always started smiling.
After 4 days, the event was over and we had to separate, I felt really sad, wondering when I would see her again. She already invited me to join the next one, which is in summer, but I'm not sure if I can wait that long. Her birthday is next month, and I already have bought a present for her. I've been planning to ask her if she wants to meet on her birthday, I could stay for a couple of days. But I'm not sure if wants to.
When we're talking alone, she talks to me with the cutest, sweetest voice I've ever heard.