I got bullied by guys and girls at school. I fell for the shy nerdy guys. But even they weren't interested. I read books, got A's in school, since that was only thing in my life. Later on I fell for an autistic guy online. I loved him but it ended because he didn't love me as much. And it hurt.
And I have been depressed. I've been alone for a long time. I feel ugly and worthless. I'm not pretty enough for any guy to love me or make love to me. I'm thinking about plastic surgery but I'm not sure I could do that.
So should I give up? Accept my life as it is. Focus completely on my career and myself and forget about love?