Most Helpful Girl
man... i felt like i was about to murder someone.
I'm the type who will try and try and try for something to work, but if it just isn't happening, i need to end it.
being the one to break that news is just terrible. i never want to do it again.
Most Helpful Guy
I was talking about this to someone. For me, it's like a desperation to stay alive. I have nightmares about drowning and do whatever I can to stay afloat. I must kick and fight to keep going. This includes doing a lot of things, both good and bad. Learning new hobbies, meeting new people, drinking to forget (never been much of a drinker before), lots of sex with random girls.
After a long time, I feel too tired to keep this up, and now the pain is setting in. It's massive and overwhelming. I can't handle it. I've stopped caring about myself. I've stopped reaching out to those around me. The whole is getting deeper and the light is becoming dimmer... I don't know where this is going.