Ok so I am 100% Bisexual. I've had crushes on both genders since I was about 7, I used to often cry about it because I thought I would go to hell. My family is open to gays but does not believe bisexuals exist, that they're are just people who want attention. Growing up I was so confused, I thought I was a lesbian because I had a crush on my bff, then I began to like a male celebrity and told myself I'm straight. This occurred on/off my whole life. Then when I was 13 I made out with my bestfriend often for about a month and we touched each other one time, (my first orgasm) to this day I am mortified by my actions, I stopped talking to her, prayed for forgiveness and I even spoke to a priest about it :(. Anyhow now I am engaged to a lovely man from Russia, I love him <3 but he's conservative and I could never tell him of my experience. Well, currently our close friend is newly engaged to a woman that I am soooo attracted to! She is the most gorgeous thing, I can hardly stop thinking about her after we have double dates or we get our nails done. I can't help but imagine doing sensual and sexual things with her. The most tempting part is, she is very relaxed and open, I'm confident that if I approached her in a sexual way she would not deny me. And lately I've been desiring a multiple partnership, for instance me, my fiancé, and a another woman. I want to have threesomes, a female body to touch, equal treatment between all 3 of us, share a bed, maybe the woman and I could both have his children and raise them as siblings in our big family <3. I feel so guilty for daydreaming this but honestly it's my core desire. I would be so happy to live this life, I'm even depressed that it will never happen. but I'm so scared to introduce the idea to my fiancé and my biggest fear is that it's immoral, I don't want to go to hell :( .
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Don't get married.
You will do yourself an even bigger injustice if you do.
You have the right to live the life that you want.
But you do not have the right to lie and mislead someone else.
I think you should be honest with your fiance.
Tell him everything.
You can't keep living a lie.
Don't tell him about your wants to have threesome right away.
First see how he accepts the news of you being bi and having urges to be with a woman.
if he opens to the idea eventually bring up having another woman In your bed.
You cannot keep hiding this secret and pretend that it isn't there.
Eventually it will grow bigger than you and you will no longer be able to hide it anymore.0