So why am I the worst friend ever and she's the best? I suck at keeping myself calm, level headed and I always over think everything. Take now for example, I haven't herd from her since yester day fully knowing exactly why. One being that she's busy, two that she's in a really down mood, and three is her not wanting to make her problems mine. Regardless of knowing this I keep thinking I screwed up, she hates me, there's someone better to be talking to. I need ideas on how to have more confidence in what I DO know about her, not what I'm afraid of. I end up unloading my burden on her and she's willing to help to an extent which she has no reason to. I can't do that to her anymore.
Crusify me for this all you can, I've been doing it for years already. The biggest fight we had was me doing this dumbass thing I just told you all about. I drove around for 3 hours one night thinking about killing myself, I didn't, got help. Thats all I will say about that. Why I mention this is because rather than do anything to myself I decided to show her sister who was 2 years younger than her a nude picture of her, saying that her crazy boyfriend forced her to send him them which was true but the point is I'm garbage here. I need to fix this with her family, I just don't know where to start.