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Well, it sounds like you have guys that are interested, you must be attractive and probably have a good personality. In order to open up like you are trying to, you need to leave the past in the past! The majority of your post was about bad things that happened in the past, not focusing on your current situation. You've got to start fresh! You are older, smarter, and probably past the awkward stage that you were in. Just be yourself, go out of your way to be nice, you will do just fine.