Also my friends dont like him and I would never be able to tell them I did without them freaking out. This makes them sound like bad friends but they are really great. I have friend zoned him in the past and as I just got out of a relationship I'm worried if I tell them I like him they will think he is a rebound but he is everything right that was wrong in my last relationship and I think if he didn't have such a history with girls he would be perfect. Also he is friends with my ex.
Ben is super fun and I don't even have to think to flirt with him because it comes so naturally. I am not afraid to be myself around him. Everytime im with him i feel super happy and get butterflies. He seems like a great guy but I don't know if I should even bother or if he'll just use me.