Well, I recently got into a relationship with this new guy. He's everything the other one isn't, attentive, eager to see me, affectionate, and he lives here as opposed to hours away. I saw the first guy about 2 weeks ago, right before me and this new guy made it official. I didn't have the heart to tell him I had met somone. And I felt guilty for hanging out with him.
The first guy will be back for a whole month. He's been trying to communicate with me which is strange because he used to never do that while he was away. At some point I have to tell him. But I just feel like I physically can't. I liked him so much at one point, and it hurts to think we'd suddenly be out of each other's lives. I know I sound so finicky, but I know if had both guys standing in front of me, I would choose the one I'm currently dating.
However, I will be moving in less than a year. I know that me and the guy I'm currently with will not continue a relationship once I leave. But here's the thing, the first guy is so similar to me in the way he was raised and his goals, so a part of me feels like down the road (like years) we could start fresh. I just feel like we met when we were too young. But I feel like he is someone I could really see myself with in the long run, once we've both done some growing up. Is it bad to have these thoughts while dating someone else? I would never cheat. But I don't want to completely throw away what I had with the first guy.