Okay so there's this girl that I really fell for a while ago, and I feel really hard because the more and more she became uninterested, the more and more of a pathetic effort I tried to get her. I basically screwed myself over from the beginning, and I know that now. And I'm also done with the whole situation, I wish her the best and I want her out of my life, so I blocked her on everything that I had her added on.
But today I was looking at some old pictures of mine on Instagram, and I saw her username as one of the likes. For some reason I clicked it, I don't know why really. I just wanted to. But then I was able to see all of her recent photos, even tho it clearly has a button that says "Unblock", because I already have her blocked. But I can still see her photos and that kinda pisses me off. I don't want to see how her life is going, that's the whole reason I blocked her in the first place so that I didn't have the option to be a creep and keep checking up on her, because it's creepy and it was really making me more obsessed at the time and "checked up" on her like 3 or so times a day, it was getting ridiculous.
Well, I have panic attacks sometimes and whenever I noticed that I could see her photos, I started getting shaking and felt like my heart was racing. I wasn't exactly having a "panic attack", I know what those feel like. Trust me. But I just felt very uncomfortable and nauseous. Even whenever I see a picture one of my friend's posted and she's in it, it just gives me this really nauseating and feel shaky. I don't understand what the reason is, especially when I feel like I might actually throw up just from a picture. I have GAD and panic disorder I deal with daily, panic attacks only happen sometimes but I'm constantly anxious and have had anxiety to where it makes me feel sick, but everytime I see her face I feel that way. I don't even want to know what I would do if I saw her in person. I'd probably have a straight up panic attack.
Most Helpful Girl
aww sweety! I use to get like that too and same thing happen to me when I was younger only it was in person not online. I think the reason your body making you like that is because your nervous and you have strong feeling. I think you should let this one go she clearly not interested. Or you should have voice your feeling! Girls aren't mind readers ya know!0
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Most Helpful Guy
If this was your first crush, it will take a long time before you'll be able to see her pictures or hear her name without thinking about her0