He is my first. But I hate my mental illness. Do i actually love him? I have no idea.
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Anxiety and Depression runs in my own family, sweetie, so I can relate. Thank Goodness I don't have this but I do know what they have all gone through and the Best from the Rest thing that I can personally advise you to Do... Is make sure you see a doctor for some much needed medication.
You cannot continue down a path of destruction with having 'Mental illness.' You will always have a hard time trying to Contend with every day problems in the world, trying to function daily and even Hold on to any sort of real Relationship.
Everyone you try and bring into your circle, will be forced to have to 'Contend' with your problems, and even on medicine, of course, the right man someday, will have to accept you unconditionally as you go through the motions from time to time.
Good luck. xx0