I am anxious and depressed today for several reasons.
1. I have an immense fear of growing up/getting older. I have a fear that people will no longer be compassionate and being held more accountable scares me.
2. One of the biggest issues I am having is that I never had a girlfriend. My friend has a serious relationship with this girl who is beautiful. He is going to propose to her this year. I never expected this to happen, because I felt we related in the fact we struggled with women. But now he has an awesome girl and a great relationship.
I want a girlfriend so bad. The only type of relationship I had was a psudorelationship that lasted a week. It was awkward and she ended up not having feelings for me. Other than that, I never had an actual girlfriend.
But I don't want just any girl. I want a girl who is like me and never been in a relationship.
I want us to be each other's first loves.
Most Helpful Girl
As someone who is older than you, you still have several years before this becomes an "issue."
At 22, you're still comparatively young. I'm in my 30s and yet to find love/someone. I see all my friends and peers settling down, starting families, etc., and then there's me... nothing. I also fear growing old, alone and un-loved. Each year I grow older, the anxiety grows more. However, my anxiety will not make me desperate and will not cause me to settle.
As you grow older, it gets more and more difficult to find someone, let alone that you'll find the love of your life holding the preference that she also has never been in a relationship. Your preference/standards might be too narrow as you grow older (I don't think it's an issue now, at age 22).1
Most Helpful Guy
This kind of attitude will only help to lessen your chances.0