My ex was very nasty to me on and off. He couldnt support me when i a family member died. He told me i needed to grow the f up and that the death wasn't about me. He would constantly kick me out of the house and tell me the house would never be mine. Its been a month and i haven't heard from him. I feel like im a horrible person to push him away. He also punished me by saying he canceled our trip but he didn't. So i pushed him away since he told me i should learn to be alone.