I don't feel like getting to know anyone at the moment in my life. I want to have a boyfriend but I'm too scared to go out with anyone so I end up pushing guys away. My past relationships were a major failure and it has impacted my self esteem immensely. I'm scared of being judged by guys and I'm tired of feeling low and sad whenever things don't work out. I don't know how to get over this problem.
I'm more focused on my career and achieving what I've been dreaming of. I don't think I have time for love or getting to know anyone. Part of me wants to be loved but I can't risk getting hurt right now as I have so much going on (work wise). It's an endless loop of fear and choosing my career over anything else. I don't know if I should do anything about it or keep things as they are for now.