Im 19 currently studying abroad. My life is successful. I work, study and have at least 3 different groups of friends whom I can trust. my grades are excellent and work is going well. I am also learning a nee language and I hangout with my friends a lot and I have a lot of fun. The only thing not going as planned is that I am not doing a lot of things that im passionate about (e. g dancing). But I still do other things i love like going to the gym and reading books. So, lately I feel like I need a girl in my life. I literally feel like I am in need of a girl. But not just any girl.. she must be a very beautiful girl. The bad part is that I dont care about her feelings.. i just want her in a selfish way.. why is that and how can I fix it?