Here's the thing. This has gone on for so long and because I'm so used to it, when someone tries to get closer to me or even express their feelings to me, I just, kind of end up just looking at them oddly. Well, not like, LOOK look at them oddly, it's mostly metaphorical, but I politely decline their advances.
Is this actually healthy? People have told me I might suffer from like, some extreme, final acceptance stage of solitude or something.