B4 this day i wasn't really considering it but since that day i became obsessed over her and i couldnt c her as a friend again and after sometime i told her that i love her she told me i am not looking for a relationship atm maybe in the future.
She would always talk about her crush and ask for my opinion in some crush matters which i give because i dont want to make her know that i am jealous anyway after some months she met a guy and they fell in love and at this point i decided that its over i have to leave even after crying and begging me to stay but i left anyway.
She kept trying to reach me until i gave in and we returned as friends and latter she left her boyfriend but we still quarrel a lot and sometimes i do it on purpose cuz i wanna leave because every time we go out i feel the urge to cuddle or hug her but i know i can't and every time i feel i should tell her how much i love her i back away cuz i know i won't hear it back.
I know i am wrong here but we quarrel sometimes because i insist that she has feeling for me and she says she doesn't although i made her say that she loves me a couple of times and made her rethink about me but after she wakes up all these feelings fade away.
yesterday she told me that she will make a move toward her crush and i told her go for it but she then told me that she won't (she was too confused ) and I don't know why i snapped out of jealousy i think and told her i wanna sleep and that i dont have time for your naivety and now r not talking although i am planning to call her next week and apologize.