Because I have always been very shy and sensitive when it comes to women. I've never had a girlfriend. It seems like she'd come out of complete nowhere simply because there have never been girls around, in my life. It's kind of depressing when I look back and I've never had many females in my life and I don't really know why that is. Some guys just can't shake them off if they tried, and they aren't even all that sometimes either.
But I do wish and hope I can find a woman that I am highly attracted to and have a great and fulfilling sexual relationship with, one day, but have it be much more than that. I just look forward to that day I can bring a woman home that I am very enthusiastic and proud of. 😔